Post by juancook on Aug 28, 2024 18:38:15 GMT -5
I suffer from anxiety. I suffer from major depression. I am an alcoholic. So having the experiences I've had in life with all three of the aforementioned illnesses, I can sympathize with Harper and what she is going through. I didn't lose my father at the age of 5 years old. I didn't grow up in the spotlight in a town that admired my father. I didn't get recruited to play at Nebraska. I didn't play for a National Championship and suffer a heartbreaking loss like she and the rest of Nebraska did. But I have 2 DUI's. I've lost friends because of my alcoholism. I lost jobs early in life because of my alcoholism and depression. I lost a marriage because of it all and I've suffered so much to not want to see anyone and just disappear from existence.
But I have gone through things in life that mirror what Harper is currently going through right now. I've been to rehab. I've been on various medications to curb the anxiety and depression. I've had multiple "Come to Jesus" moments. And I've had traumatic experiences in life that have sent me into a bad downward spiral that took me ages to recover from. The most important thing I've realized through all of it is that compassion is a rare thing between human beings. Especially in the day and age of the internet and "keyboard warrior" tactics.
I've watched this board and the news on Harper from afar. I haven't really said anything about it on here for a few reasons: I'm not really active on here (mostly because of my illness and the state I've been in for the better part of this year), there are so many of you who've commented already on it, and there are so many villainous and spiteful posters on here who were quick to cast the first stone at Harper. I've come to the realization that you can't convince people to change what they believe and think about specific individuals. People are going to believe what they want to believe, and you/I can't have any control over that. Especially when it comes to rabid fanbases and the sheer disdain that so many have for Nebraska, Texas, Wisconsin and the list goes on.
Harper is going through a lot right now. Imagine falling out of love with something that you love so much. Harper is going through that right now with volleyball. Will she recover from it? I really don't know. From personal experience, I can say that it's really difficult to recover from something as traumatic as what she has gone through. I really do hope she recovers from it for her own sake - regardless of who she plays for.
Anxiety and depression are illnesses. People are sick from it. I'm sick from it. And I can guarantee that Harper is sick from it. I for one support Harper immensely in what she is going through. I also support her in her recovery, and support the people who've supported her thus far. John Cook and others have publicly supported her in her recovery and I applaud them for that. I just cannot imagine what her family is going through right now.
Being a parent myself, I cannot imagine what Harper's mother is going through right now knowing that complete strangers have vilified her daughter online with hateful comments, judgement, and disdain. This includes VolleyTalk. If this was happening to my son or daughter, I know that I would be devastated and feel helpless.
I just hope that those "haters" will move on from it and have a little more understanding for someone like Harper and what she is going through right now. All things aside with volleyball and who she plays for, this is first and foremost a human being. Personally, I commend Harper and her family for putting her story out there in the public eye for people to see. It makes her very vulnerable, but also very brave for allowing ESPN to document her story in a way so that people can see what she has been going through.
Thanks for sharing your story. My family has been touched by depression and anxiety many times. It sucks. A lot. I wish you all the best on your road to sobriety and recovery from your depression and anxiety. If there's anything I can do for you, just let me know.